Past, Present, and Future

Hi guys!!! So in this post I'm gonna write a little review on NCIS' emotional and heartbreaking episode titled Past, Present, and Future (S11E02).

So this episode is basically about trying to find some random terrorist named Parsa who has been attacking my babies and Gibbs badass-ly shot a bad guy named Mendez and then there is Fornell who people taught was Gibbs' target which is weird and it turns out that that he's not bla bla bla...

LIKE I CARE

The only thing that that people (or at least me) gave a damn about in this episode was TIVA.
Yes, because this episode is marked as Ziva's farewell episode (except if miracle happens one day and I'll wake up to the news that Cote de Pablo's coming back. PLEASE LET THIS HAPPENS) and people are dying to see the resolution that the writers give to the 8 years (8 YEARS, PEOPLE, 8 YEARS) of sexual tension between Tony and Ziva. Do they give Ziva a goodbye she deserves? Well, here's my opinion.

On the other side of the world, which is Israel, Tony is trying to track down Ziva who has been MIA. He met Ziva's old friend named Deena who turns out to be Ari's girlfriend before Ari was dead, shot by Ziva. Long story short, Tony found Ziva who is in emotional state because she hates the fact that she is now basically a killer (even though it's a part of her job) and it makes her sad that maybe, for every person that she killed, there are people who are crying over that person. She also told Tony that what she is now is not someone that she wanted to be. She decided to let go of her batch. Well, actually it's a lot more complicated than that but I'm too lazy to give out details lol. Tony failed to convince Ziva to go back to DC so they shared a long passionate goodbye kiss at the airport and yeah, 8 years of Tiva has ended right there!

Okay, first of all I loved the kiss. I loved how after the first long kiss, Tony gave her another one short kiss, as if he's not willing to stop. I loved how Ziva kept closing her eyes, as if she did not want Tony to stop. Little yet significant details. Second of all,  under any circumstances, Ziva David wanting a goodbye with NCIS is just too out of character. NCIS is basically her family. I remember clearly at the end of Season 10 she defined NCIS as "this is not about my job, this is about my family!", and now in second episode of Season 11 she wanted a goodbye? Okay NCIS, please stop with the inconsistencies or..... you'll start to be like Glee.

All complains aside, this is actually a very good episode. Maybe it is just me who is still in denial stage. Maybe no matter how good the episode is, it will still just makes me mad and complain about things. To be honest I can't deny that I'm a bit mad with Cote de Pablo for not continuing her contract. But it's her decision and I should respect that. I love Cote so much anyway and I know I'm gonna truly, deeply miss her.

Oh and I have some additions to my Tiva playlist which are:
Goodbye by Kesha & Under The Sun by Michael Weatherly :)

Yes Michael is the actor who plays Tony and Under The Sun was a song that he wrote inspired by Tiva, so how can it be not on Tiva playlist!!! The song is amazing and Michael's voice is sooo sexy, you should check it out!

"The hope is fading from my lips
When I kiss you with goodbye
Now when you let go of our last embrace
Please don't look me in the eye
Secret's out, that I just might care about you
You broke me, you're leaving
There's nothing I can do
I'll find a way to close the door
I want to say so much more but
I found you once, you're lost again
Two thousand miles took what could have been"

-Goodbye - Kesha

Stay strong, my fellow Tiva shippers. We can always count to a million and we will always have Paris! :')

TIVA Playlist

Hi guys! So this is late and tomorrow I'm gonna have mid test BUT I'm having the urge to make a playlist of songs that remind me of Tiva or describes their relationship or at least just gives me some Tiva feels.

YES, Tiva aka Tony and Ziva aka my favorite ship in the world from the CBS #1 show NCIS! In case you don't know.

AND in case you don't know, in the next week's episode..... *drumroll*
TIVA'S GONNA HAPPEN
Like no lie guys, there will be Tiva kiss and I know I will be the happiest girl and I shall not worry about anything ever again.
Or maybe I should, because this episode will be marked as Cote de Pablo's (the actress who plays Ziva)  last episode. My girl crush Cote de Pablo. Ikr?

*sigh* I know she is going for good. Hopefully.

OOPS MAJOR SPOILER. MY BAD.

Whatever, I don't want to let myself drawn in sadness all over again. Here's the playlist.
1. Breathe - Taylor Swift ft. Colbie Caillat
2. High Hopes - Kodaline
3. Mirrors - Justin Timberlake
4. Take Me Away - Phillip Phillips
5. Pretending - Glee Casts
6. Standing In Front of You - Kelly Clarkson
7. Nothing Compares - Pixie Lott
8. You've Got to Hide Your Love Away - The Beatles
9. Everything - Lifehouse
10. The Reason - Hoobastank

Prepare your box of Kleenex for the next episode, guys!



YOU'VE BEEN WARNED.

Anthony DiNozzo is the Love of My Life

Do you know how it feels like to find a soulmate? It's supposed to be awesome, right? Well, except if your soulmate is a fictional character.

Hi guys!!! Sooo holiday is coming and I think it's time for some NCIS marathon!!! Seriously, this show is everything. The characters are so damn relatable and I love them with all my heart. They are like my babies. But if I had to choose one, it had to be The Very Special Agent Anthony DiNozzo. Gosh, my love for him is just unmeasurable. The last time I was this crazy for a fictional character was for Ron Weasley. Now I think Tony has been included to my list of "Favorites Fictional Characters of All Time" alongside Ron and Lupin.

Why do I love Tony that much?
Okay, I know some people find Tony childish, annoying and maybe sometimes stupid (which is totally ridiculous, how can an NCIS senior agent be stupid?). I admit it, sometimes Tony does not take things seriously. But time after time, he has proven that he is a very capable agent. He has his own ways though and just like Gibbs said, "you may not admire his methods, but you gotta love the results". Now imagine, what would NCIS be without Anthony DiNozzo? He is basically the glue of the team. He is the one that keeping things together. He is the class clown, without him everything will be so damn boring. Especially with Ziva and Gibbs who have the tendency to be high tempered and McGee who is basically a plain computer geek. I'm sorry, like I said before I love all of them so much but Tony is the one that makes the show interesting. And even though he is all goofy and bubbly on the outside does not mean he is always like that inside. Tony has been through a lot. He lost his mom when he was little, his love life sucks and his relationship with his father is not really good. And yet he still managed to make people smile. I can relate to this so much. I mean, people always see me as this optimistic girl but well, only God knows what I think and feel inside lol. Now everytime I get sad, I think to myself "what would Anthony DiNozzo do?" and trust me, it helps a lot. See? If Tony was a real person he would totally be my soulmate.

ANYWAY, it just saddens me that until now he has not found the one. I know deep inside he loves and cares about Ziva. And I said this not only because I'm a huge Tiva shipper. It is just shown through his actions and..... eyes. When Tony is with Ziva, he is willing to show his sensitive sides. He is willing to break down his walls. I know Ziva also feels the same way about Tony but idk for some weird reasons she keeps sleeping with some other guys, and it sucks. I mean, Ziva is very smart but she is not smart when it comes to love.  Look at her exes; Rivkin, Ray, and this Adam guy is not too convincing either. But please Gary Glasberg aka the producer of NCIS, please let Tony find the one ASAP. Ziva or not, it doesn't really mater. Of course it MATTERS  to me, but whatever. Tony deserves to be happy. And if you want to make me happy too , please let Tiva happen. GOSH I'M SO EXCITED FOR SEASON 11!!!

Oh and I found this amazing fan video about 95 Reasons to ship Tiva and it's just so damn beautiful it made me crying out loud.



PS: Seems like I take this show way too seriously.
PPS: Let me love you, Anthony Dinozzo.

The Best American idol Performances of All Time

So this is it! Season 12 of American Idol has ended and the winner is... CANDICE GLOVER!!!

Honestly I didn't really care about the result lol. The top 3 are my favorites from the entire season so whoever takes the title is okay with me. Well, in the end I was actually a little bit more into Kree, but either way, Candice is awesome and she deserves it as much.

SOOOO, to celebrate the end of Season 12, I'm gonna make a top ten list of The Best American Idol Performances of All Time (according to me)!

1. Kelly Clarkson - Natural Woman

After 12 seasons, for me this performance is still unbeatable. Even though there were so many Idol contestants that tried to sing this song after her, no one compares. That whistle register is crrrrazy. Only the one and only Queen Kelly can do that.

2. David Cook - Billie Jean

This performance is craycray. He rearranged this song to fit his voice and it worked sooo well. His tone is perfect as always. A true artist, there.

3. Haley Reinhart - Benny and the Jets

Just like Steven Tyler said, "YOU SING SEXY". This performance was like a turning point for Haley in the competition. She succeeded to make me LOOVE her by this. Honestly, I was barely noticing her before Benny and the Jets. Lol.

4. Phillip Phillips - Volcano

This performance was breathtaking. The rasp in his voice, the guitar, the backup singer, the lyrics of this song. What can I say? It's just so perfect that it made me cry. Almost every performance of Phillip has a place in my heart, but Volcano? It is fucking special.

5. Adam Lambert - Whole Lotta Love

I HAD A HARD TIME CHOOSING MY FAVORITE ADAM PERFORMANCE CAUSE EVERY SINGLE ONE IS FUCKING BRILLIANT. Well, to me Adam is a rock god and his voice soars best when he sings classic rock songs. I know that everyone was obsessing over his Mad World performance (the only performance that Simon Cowell gave standing ovation to on Idol). But idk, I prefer Whole Lotta Love, Crying, Track of My Tears, A Change is Gonna Come, Feeling Good, etc... Mad World was just not my favorite.

6. Kris Allen - Heartless

Kris Allen (aka Adam Lambert's baby) sang the hell outa this song. Randy was right, this version is better than the original and for me personally, better than The Fray's.  I downloaded the studio version of this song and listen to it until now. I think this performance is the one that made him the winner of season 8.

7. Blake Lewis - You Give Love a Bad Name

Blake Lewis' beatbox never fails. And even though this song is a classic and Blake's voice is more current, he managed to work it out by putting his own spin to it. And it turned out super amazing!!! Blake is super awesome and I think he should have won season 7. Well, but Jordin was awesome too for her age.

8. Angie Miller - You Set Me Free

Angie was taking a big risk for singing an original song with piano in Hollywood Week. But guess what? It paid off. This song is awesome, and it sounds like it's written by a professional. Just like the judges, I'm blown away. And I'm so glad that it becomes Angie's first single because people need to know about this song.

9. Colton Dixon - Piano Man

First of all, LOVE the red piano. I'm so getting that for my future house. The voice of Colton when singing this may not be perfectly flawless, but there is just an emotion behind it that made it so beautiful. And I always love it when Colton plays piano. I think it's where he becomes comfortable the most and it shows.

10. Phillip Phillips - Home 

I still remember how it felt to watch this performance for the first time. Words cannot describe how proud I was. This song gave Phillip recognition he deserves. And, this song turned out to be the best-selling single by an Idol alumni and no wonder, cause that is just how it's supposed to be.

That's it! These people are just so talented and I love them with all my heart. I'm so grateful that I'm lucky enough to had the opportunity to watch Kelly, David Cook, Adam, and Haley live. I hope I'm gonna see Phillip and the rest soon! Hope yall enjoying my picks!

Sad Songs and Idol 12

Okay guys maybe I should start this post with some sad songs recommendations:

• Stars by Grace Potter & The Nocturnals
• Here With Me by The Killers
• Undone by Haley Reinhart
• Underneath by Adam Lambert
• Wine After Whiskey by Carrie Underwood
• Volcano by Damien Rice ft. Lisa Hannigan (Phillip Phillips' version is nice too)
• Can't Have You by The Jonas Brothers
• Hold You by Nina Nesbitt
• Out From Under by Joanna Pacitti (covered by Britney Spears)
• What If by Ashley Tisdale

No, no. Don't get me wrong.  I don't want to make you feel depressed or anything. But I just love those songs that can make me feel emotional or cry at some point... I think that means the singer or the songwriter has done a great job in delivering his/her message. Even though maybe I haven't even experienced some stories in those songs, but it's just so awesome when their words are infectious. Well maybe some of them are not even that sad but they're just..... dark. But they are so good so you should check them out or you will regret it!

YOU WILL. REGRET. IT.

Well if I had to choose one song from that list, my current favourite is probably Stars. That song makes me go asdfghjkl every time. It reminds me of many people, it remind me of my pets that have passed away, it reminds me of simply anything that I have lost, it even reminds me of my celebrity crush(es) sometimes, anything really.  I first heard this song probably 3 or 4 months ago, but didn't really hook to it. Until a guy named Nick Boddington did a great job singing this song on Idol and I was like "I know that song!!!". I directly went to Youtube to re-watch his performance.

Here's the performance :)

And then I downloaded the original version, paid attention to the lyrics etc. etc. and I cried in the middle of the night because of it. Lol no this sounds too dramatic. Idk, there's just something in this song that touches my heart. 

Talking about Idol, what's with the guys this season?! No offense, but compared to the last season, they suck. Well maybe some of them like Nick Boddington and Devin Vellez are good. But last season there were just sooo many talents and they are so diverse. I don't know what the heck is wrong with this season. I mean Charlie Askew is just sooo damn overrated and yet Nicki Minaj is treating him like a god. Well, I don't think this is entirely Nicki's fault though cause sometimes she's a great judge and she stands for herself but sometimes she's like so high... sometimes I'm not even sure if she is watching the same thing with me. For girls, well, maybe I'm rooting for Angela Miller. and I think it's just so stupid how they eliminated Shubha Vedula so soon, when she's definitely talented. Like they want a great singer, Shubha is a great singer. And they eliminated her?! So what the heck that they want now? A singer or a whole package artist? I don't get it. And the comment that Nicki gave Shubha was so dang disrespectful. But so far, I think a girl should really win this season.

I just... I miss season 11 when everything was so beautiful and perf. And I always got so excited for Thursdays and get freakin' nervous on Friday mornings waiting for result. THOSE TIMES ARE JUST SO GREAT. :''')

I love each and everyone of them so much asdfghjkl why can't they just reunite and perform on my TV everyday. I guess I can never moved on from season 11.

Or maybe I just can't moved on from my baby a.k.a. the winner of last season :')

But I still love Idol... I just need a new judging panel, soon. SOON. I kinda wanting the old judging panel with Paula, Simon, and Randy. Kara is alright too.

ANYWAY

It's Monday again... And I'm sick of Mondays.

Alright, alright. I have to admit that today was not that bad. I had fun while doing english presentation and me and my best friends were like so high today so we laughed... a lot. We are high every Mondays I guess, don't know why.

"Stars, they make me wonder where you are

Stars, up on heaven's boulevard

And if I know you at all, I know you've gone too far

So I, I can't look at the stars"

TWFTSOTM Review and Updates!

OMG. Look who's back here! ME.

HOW ARE YALL?

I know right. I know right. IT'S BEEN FOREVER. And there are so many stories that I want to tell. I have to say that late December 2012 until early January 2013 was the best time of my life. It's a long story but the point is I got to meet my idol and my inspiration, Adam Lambert. AND IT'S AWESOME, he's awesome. I met Tommy too and he's even waving at me. Things that I thought would be so impossible happened to me.
So, I'm not trying to be a motivator or anything but miracle does happen guys. YOU JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE IT :)

Beside Adam Lambert, it's not a new story that I'm also a HUGE fan of Phillip Phillips. And Kelly Clarkson too (AND I'M SO PROUD SHE GOT A GRAMMY'S! YOU GO GURL!). So I'm forever thankful for American Idol no matter how lame that show might get. It's lame but I love it haha. It's kind of a guilty pleasure, you know.

In this post, I want to make a track-by-track review of Phillip Phillips' album, The World From The Side of The Moon. I know it's kinda late because it's been released for 3 months but I just feel like writing it now. Well don't expect a super objective review cause you know....it's me, a hardcore Phillip's fan from day 1 who is talking. So just expect a little-biased-fan-perspective review, k?

1. Man on The Moon (written by Phillip Phillips)
Man on The Moon is definitely one of my favorite songs from this album. The guitar, the lyrics, the raspy voice combined make it a pure perfection. Well, especially the lyrics because they are just so poetic. I wish I could write a song this way someday. Anyway I (with a little help of Ghina) interpret this song as a guy who watches his ex-girlfriend (maybe) from the side of the moon, just wondering if she's doing okay. And he actually still cares for this girl but he wants to let her be. And I LOVEEE the idea of it. Seriously where did Phillip even get it at the first place?!

2. Home (written by Drew Pearson & Greg Holden)
You know how much I LOVE Home right? Whenever I hear this song, I still clearly remember the moment when Phillip won Idol, crying, running towards his family. TOO. MUCH. FEELS. And this song just certified for 4 million downloads and I'm so damn proud of that. Many people say it's too Mumford and Sons-ish but this song is not even written by him so WHY BLAME?! Anyway, someday when I travel abroad somewhere for college or work, I wish a handsome guy (or even Phillip himself) would personally sing this song for me. I hope it's not too much to ask.

3. Gone, Gone Gone (written by Derek Fuhrmann, Todd Clark, Wattenberg)
So you can see from my recent post, Gone Gone Gone was my favorite from the album. It's probably not anymore now, but I'm still glad that this song is chosen as 2nd single because it is fun, catchy and commercial and people LOVE it. But now I realised that the best songs from this album are the ones that are written by Phillip himself. But I'm still soooo loving the lyrics of this song I think it's the sweetest song ever like seriously you are probably crazy if you read the lyrics of this song and don't get butterflies in your stomach. Anyway if you haven't watched the video of this song, you better check it out!!!


4. Hold On (written by Phillip Phillips)
Hold On is beautiful. It may not so catchy but that's what makes it beautiful. One thing that I noticed from this album is just PP is so damn wise for his age. It is shown especially in this song and Tell Me A Story. The lyrics are so motivating. Not the cheesy kind of motivating but the beautiful one. OKAY WHAT AM I EVEN TALKING ABOUT. Lol it's hard to explain. Anyway I like to listen to this song before I sleep :)

5. Tell Me a Story (written by Phillip Phillips & David Ryan Harris)
Tell Me a Story is one of the most perfectly-written songs ever. The lyrics are hands down, the best from the album. If I had to choose between Hold On and Tell Me A Story, I think I'm gonna go with Tell Me A Story. I listen to it everytime I'm feeling a little blue. I will never get bored of this song, ever.

"Tell you a story and it starts with time
Most on how you lived, and learned how to die
Never fakes in this world that brings death to life
So don't believe in everything you see
Because what you want might not be what you need
Hold your breath jump with me and we'll survive"

6.  Get Up Get Down (written by Phillip Phillips, Wattenberg, Derek Fuhrmann)
Get Up Get Down literally makes me want to get up, get down and move my ass around. It's just so freaking groovy. I fell in love with this song since the first time I heard it. It's freaking sexy too. One of the good choices for 3rd single, I think.

"get up get down let's get lost in this merry go round and round". OH LET'S, PHILLIP.

7. Where We Came From (written by Phillip Phillips & Jon Green)
Where We Came From is the first song that I heard from this album, well after Home. And my opinion about this song stays the same. It's cool, perfectly written but still so groovy. I LOOOVE the "climb the mountain, swim for shore, bring it back to how it was before" part. This is also a good choice for 3rd single.

8. Drive Me (Written by Phillip Phillips & Ben Neil)
So, this song is written by Phillip himself and his brother in law, Ben. I love Ben. I'm forever thankful for him for introducing Phillip to guitar. And the fact that they wrote a song together is just sooo cute. And this song is just the sexiest (or should I say dirtiest?) track from the album. I didn't expect him to write this kind of song but I LOVE IT. I hope he'll make more in his 2nd album HAHA.

"I love your moves, I like your style

With them hips you drive me wild
I'm the puppet to your strings
You keep on moving me
And the world you keep on turning
Turning from me now
Everything we have is moving down down down
We just keep on grooving all down down down"

I WOULD LOVEEEE TO MOVE DOWN DOWN DOWN WITH YOU PHILLIP ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME. Oh things that I would do to him.

9. Wanted Is Love (Written by Phillip Phillips)

Honestly, Wanted Is Love is the song that I played the least from the album. I don't know why though, I still think the chorus is beautiful. And the lyrics. :)

10. Can't Go Wrong (Written by Phillip Phillips, Greg Holden and Drew Pearson)

Can't Go Wrong is the kind of song that you just want to shout after a long hard day. And the fact that Phillip sings about his hometown, Georgia, is just too sweet. It makes me want to go there and stay at Phillip's house, his bedroom specifically.

11. A Fool's Dance (Written by Phillip Phillips)

I love how dark A Fool's Dance is. There is just something so gloomy about this song but I enjoy it. And the lyrics just stab my heart. Listen to this song when you feel a bit somber, especially in the rainy day, in the car, staring at the window... Yeah you get what I mean.

12. So Easy (Written by Stephen Wrabel, Peter Amato, Pete Salis)

Just like the title, this song is easy, simple and very catchy. I really like to imagine Phillip singing this song to me because it's just so cute.

"You make it so easy to fall so hard." Yes Phillip, you do :')

So that's it guys!!! I hope you enjoyed my review!

OH I THINK I MISSED SOMETHING

Take Me Away (Written by Phillip Phillips and Hannah Blackwell) ONLY AVAILABLE IN TARGET DELUX EDITION

Okay, let me start with this. First, I don't get why the heck this song is only in target deluxe edition when it's pretty obvious this song is just so perfect and haunting and DEFINITELY MY FAVORITE. I can't stop replaying this song. Every single word of this song captures my feelings perfectly. Every. Single. Word. My feelings for Phillip himself. Yes I want him to take me away. Yes I only see him out of thousands coming my way. Yes he's all I wanna see and all I wanna touch & feel in every way. And we can hide forever. This may sound pathetic but whatever.

So, I give this album 4.5 stars out of possible 5 stars . It's just because I simply don't give 5 stars to ANYTHING. Well maybe Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson is a 5 stars album but that's the only one. So I'm just so proud of this album. I can't believe he has come this far. :')